my light side..

if u follow my blog. maybe u have read my dark side. now i will tell u my "light" side. everyone say my face is a very good person. although sometimes i can be some brat. but never mind all that. i am very sensitive boy and crybaby when i become so frustrated. i don't care because God have gave me all those feeling and i just had to accept it. i always want to become an guardian angel to everyone i meet. especially the special one. i want to become her angel and protect her with all my power.

even though i can't become an angel. but i want to protect all the pupil i love with all my strength. i don't care if i will die protected them. i also have thing i want to do if i was an angel.

1) i want watch the people i love everyday.
2) i want to be at their side worse and good.
3) never let anything happen to them.
4) don't want to watch they cry or sad.
 5) always give them some warm feeling with my wing.

that's all i can think right now. there many more that i want to do to all the people that dear to me. i admit that i don't care about my life. but if i wish to protect them. i need to treasure my life more often. because if i die i can't be at their side anymore. that the thing i will avoid from happening.

DI MALAM YG HENING..

KALU KORG BCE TJUK PN MSTI KO INGT NI CTER SDIH2 KN..

KALI NI XDE SDIH2..

CTER YG AKU NK SMPAIKN NI ADA LAH KSAH BNAR..(seram la plak)

AKU NI DH LA JNIS TDO LMBT..

ONE DAY 2..(speaking la plak)

AKU BERJAGA LA SMPAI LWAT MLM..

AKU BERJAGA BKN BACA BUKU TP MEN GAME..(ps1 je..xde ps2 lg)

MULA2 AKU TGK JAM BRU PKUL 12 LBIH..

LUPA PLAK NK BG THU..

KEJADIAN NI BERLAKU TIME AKU FORM 3 KOT..

SDG AKU SYOK MEN GAME..

AKU DGR BNYI KT DPUR..

TRUS MATA AKU TGK APA YG KT DPUR..

TP APA KN DAYA..

AKU XNMPK APA2 PN..(glap plak dpur time 2)

AKU PN TRUSKN MEN GAME..(pdahal tgh berdbar2)

TBE2 AKU DGR BNYI GULI JTUH..

TIK..TIK..TIK..(byangkan je la guli jtuh ats lntai)

AKU DH TERKJUT TP AKU STILL COOL..

TBE2 BNYI PLAK BNDA JTUH..

GEDEBANG!!(opocot!!slamat jntung aku x terkeluar dri bdan aku)


AKU DGR BNYI 2 N AKU BERHNTI KN PERMAINAN SEKETIKA..

HINGGA LA AKU TERDGR BNYI BATU LESUNG..

AKU TGK JAM N IA MENUNJUKKAN PKUL 3 PG..(cpt btul mse berlalu)


"BUANG TABIAT KE ORG ATS NI??PG2 LG NK MEMASAK.."

PK AKU DLM HATI..

THEN BNYI 2 MKIN PERLAHAN N AKU DGR BNYI..

TOK..TOK..TOK..(bnyi pntu kna ktuk)


PERGH!!

"YA ALLAH..SAPE PLAK DTG UMAH AKU NI??"

AKU DH XBLEH BERGRAK TP AKU BRANI KN DIRI UTK JNGUK BWAH PNTU..

TP XDE BYANG!!

AKU APA LG..

TRUS BERHNTI MEN GAME THEN TRUS BKAK LMPU RUANG TAMU..

TOK..TOK..DANG!!DANG!!(means mkin kuat)


AKU APA LG TRUS KJUT ABG AKU N CKP KT DIA ADA ORG KT LUAR TGH KTUK 
PNTU..

DIA APA LG TRUS BGUN N SRUH AKU TDO..(time 2 bnyi pntu kna ktuk stll ade)


AKU PN MNTK LA DIA TMAN AKU PG DPAN KMAS GAME AKU..

THEN AKU DH ABIS SUME 2..

BNYI 2 DH XDE..

TP AKU XBRANI PG TNDAS LA TIME 2..

TKUT BNDA 2 ADA KT DLM PLAK..

MEN KTUK PNTU TNDAS...

AKU XBERJAGA MLM UTK BEBERAPA HARI..(KIRA INSAF LA)

TP THEN AKU BT LG..

BNDA NI STILL BERTRUSAN TP AKU DH BSAN MENDGRNYA..

AKU INGT BAK KATA USTAZ OR USTAZAH..

SLAGI KTE XKACO DIA..

DIA XKN KACO KTE..

TP DIA KACO AKU..

SDG KN AKU XKACO DIA..

KEJAM SGGUH..

SO JGN LA SUKA BERJAGA MLM..

SBB KTE XTHU APA YG SDG TMAN KTE TIME 2..

LG 1..

TDO SEBELUM PKUL 3..

SBB KERAP BERLAKU DLM WKTU SEBEGINI HGGA LA SBUH..

KALU BRANI STAY LA SORG2..

HEHEHEHEHE..

ANYWAY AKU NK MSUK TDO NI..

DIA DH MULA BERBNYI..

CHOW SUME!!

empty..

pliz listen to this song..
this what i feel rght now..
u r rght in front of my eyes..
but i can't reach u..

aku keliru..

APA YG PERLU AKU LAKUKAN??

AKU SEMAKIN BUNTU!!

YA ALLAH..

TOLONG BERIKAN HAMBA-MU INI SEBRG PETUNJUK YG DPT BERI KETENANGAN KT
HATI KU NI..

AKU DH XTHU NK BT APA LG..

SUME CARA DH AKU BT..

SUME NYA X MENJDI..

KALAU MCM NI LAMA2 AKU BLEH JD GILA!!

AKU BETUL2 DH MULA KELIRU..

APA YG PERLU AKU LAKUKAN UTK BETULKAN KEADAAN NI..

SUME YG AKU LAKUKAN JD SIA2 SAJA...

AKU INGIN KN DIA..

AKU NK BERADA DI SISI DIA..

TLONG LA BERI AKU KEKUATAN UTK MENEMPUH SUME NI..

AKU XNK LPAS KN DIA LG..

TNPA DIA HDUP AKU KOSONG!!

WHAT DID U WANT??

I KNOW THAT U HATE ME..

BUT WHY MUST U CAST ME AWAY..

U CAN JUST TOLD ME..

I WILL WALK AWAY FROM U..

WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE U HAPPY??

JUST TELL ME GODAMMIT!!

I KNOW I NOT THAT PERFECT LIKE UR MAN..

BUT CAN HE GIVE U HAPPINESS THAT U SEEK??

I KNOW HE ALWAYS MAKE U CRIED..

BUT WHY U STILL LOVE HIM?!

WHAT THE HELL HE GOT THAT I DON'T HAVE?!

MONEY?!

COOL DRESS?!

BIG HOUSE?!

I'M SO SORRY BECAUSE DON'T HAVE ALL OF THAT..

BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST FOR U..

JUST BARED WITH ME MY DEAR..

EVERYDAY I THINK OF U..

EVERYDAY I CRY FOR U..

U TREAT ME LIKE A TRASH..

U WANT ME TO HATE U..

BUT I CAN'T..

IF U WANT ME TO LEAVE U ALONE..

JUST SAID IT!!

I'M JUST A HUMAN BEING..

NOT AN ANIMAL THAT CAN TAKE ALL THE HUMILIATION..

PLEASE I'M BEGGING U..

DON'T CHANGE LIKE THIS..

U ARE NOT LIKE THIS..

I REALLY LOVE U!!